Time Keeps On Slipping, Slipping, Slipping...

So here's what I know...Things keep moving forward whether I want them to or not.  People come and go in my life; some cause me great joy, some cause me great sorrow.  I hate when you spend time building people up and all they do is knock you down.  On the other hand, I love when someone takes the time to tell me my time has not been wasted.  I guess that is rooted in a need for affirmation.  We get thick-skinned and say, "I don't care what other people say about me!"  There is no truth in that statement for me.  I care too much.  A careless word can sit with me for years and make me doubt my worth.  Here's what I know...I move forward.  I forgive.  I dream again about all the things I won't physically be able to accomplish.  I strive for perfection so that the kids look amazing.  If that makes me a bitch...oh, well.  It grieves me that I could even be called that, but I keep moving forward.  I am looking forward to an amazing year, not back at a crappy one!  Move on! 

Stage Stamina...

You know those shows that ask you to just be exhausted when the curtain goes down?  If you've done your job right, your sucking wind just trying to catch your breath.  We always think, "That was awesome!  I made it!"  I remember the first time I made it all the way through Tae-Bo.  I might have cried.  Why don't we work that hard in life?  Especially in our relationships.  Where is our stamina?  We have been force fed a relationship myth of roses and sunshine!  A myth that gives us two extreme choices.  Be happy or leave.  Happy is just supposed to happen.  It shouldn't be a lot of work.  It's up to others to make us happy.  Most of us know that's not true.  It's work...exhausting, wind-sucking work.  I've been working on my core.  It is supposed to make every other muscle group work smarter.  Not harder, smarter.  I want to work smarter.  The dust from relationship wars is settling, and I'm realizing that the two extreme choices are both impossible.  I can't be happy all the time.  I can't leave.  No.  I think I'll settle in, work on my core, and build my stamina, so when the curtain comes down, I can say, "That was awesome!  I made it!"